4 years!

Four years ago today, Luke and I were honeymooning in NYC!  This morning, we're driving to Monterey to drop our two little boys off with their beloved Aunt Karen and Uncle Daniel while we take a day and night and day off to celebrate.  What changes 4 little years have brought ...

 

 

2008 (I think)

2012

Rachel Maddow on her depression

Rachel Maddow gave an interview on Fresh Air that I thought really worthwhile.  I especially enjoyed her words on dealing with depression, from about 31:00 through 35:22.

She says that one of the "defining features" of her adult life is cyclical depression.  She describes it as "manageable, but REAL," and explains how her depression isn't all the time, it isn't pure sadness, it's disconnection.  This sounds very similar to what I experience (and am not at all experiencing right now! I'm just fine and dandy right now.). 

I've never heard someone express exactly her perspective on dealing with it.  I love it.  She talks about viewing it as a train that she sees coming and just riding it out until it's over.  For her, it isn't something to stop the rest of life and deal with; it's something to acknowledge and move through and wait out.  This seems like a really healthy approach for what I sometimes feel and exactly the approach I plan to take next time I feel separated from my life.

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A quick word about writing this post since it is out of place from my usual.  I don't write it for sympathy or to make you feel down, but to share a perspective that was encouraging in case you find yourself dealing with something similar.  A friend yesterday said she doesn't mind stating things she deals with (in her case, miscarriages) because she's able to talk about them relatively unemotionally and she's found that so many others later come to her to discuss the same issue.  It's good not to feel alone or broken!

Wagner guys

At the California Academy of Science. We went Saturday AND Sunday!

Wagner family visit!

Baby Driver

Bloggy bloggy

Good morning!  I woke up with a cold and 2 coughing babies, but after tea, milk, and bananas, we're all much better and I'm feeling bloggy.  Little bits:

• This weekend Aunt Karen and Uncle Daniel are staying with the boys and sending Luke and I to Cirque du Soleil!  Scott's excited, I'm excited (and Luke and Mark seem happy too).
• Spring has SPRUNG here and it's time to plant.  I'm hoping to pick up some city compost today and get the hardy seeds (pumpkin, sunflower, lettuce, cilantro, chard) in the ground.  I might even get the delicate tomatoes started inside if all goes well.
• My jeans didn't button this morning!  This will probably be the last time in my life that is good news.  The rubber band trick is holding them over for a little while because I'm still hung up on SEVENTEEN being the magic week # at which I'm allowed to bring out the maternity clothes.  9 days, rubber band.  Hang in there.  (Pregnancy 3 is a lot different than pregnancy 1 for me, shapewise!)

15.5 weeks #3! Also, mystery body because I haven't brushed my hair yet.

Happy super Wednesday dears.

Sunday hike